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Atascadero, CA, United States
I am an adult survivor of child abuse. I lived for over 13 years of my childhood with physical, mental, and sexual abuse, at the hands of a brutal Step Father, and Mother who put Mommy Dearest to shame, she thought it was normal to beat you until you were bleeding, and scared for life. This is my story, it's time to unmask the true horrors that plagued my world. So many children suffer and die from child abuse. Someone needs to stand up for them, become a follower and join me in the fight against Child Abuse. I am not a Dr., lawyer or, anyone special, just a SURVIVOR.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Abused-get over it!

Get over it.... Tell it to the little child who was just recently found in the dumpster dead!
I found some interesting facts on the Internet to pass on to you
How many children are abused and neglected in the United States?


Each week, child protective services (CPS) agencies throughout the United States receive more than 50,000 reports of suspected child abuse or neglect. In 2002, 2.6 million reports concerning the welfare of approximately 4.5 million children were made.
In approximately two-thirds (67 percent) of these cases, the information provided in the report was sufficient to prompt an assessment or investigation. As a result of these investigations, approximately 896,000 children were found to have been victims of abuse or neglect—an average of more than 2,450 children per day. PER DAY!!

2.6 of 4.5 were made known...!  I believe I was one of the half that wasn't found out about. There wasn't any help for me or my brothers.

My abuse wasn't known by anyone, so they say. My Mother stated once, she isn't responsible for my abuse, she stated Very loud and boldly, SHIT HAPPENS and repeated it 3 times, she was pretty admit about it too. She takes no responsibility for her actions and closed her eyes to the fact that I was being physically mentally and sexually abused, by the husband she chose for herself, ON A DAILY BASIS, most of the time while she was sleeping in the other room, and even after she found out about him, she chose to stay with him. She allowed him to openly beat her children daily until they bled, for 13 years!
      The abuse she dished out wasn't any better,  because of her neglect we were taken and put into a children's homes, not once, but twice before I even made the age of 4.  I had to watch my siblings as they were ripped away from me while I was taken to a separate facility. I can remember to this day the pain of that separation when I watched my brothers being taken away. Each one piled out of the Child Welfare Car  one by one and I was held back, they were taking me somewhere else. I remember the pain and the anguish in my heart so bad, that it seemed to want to burst out of my chest.  No one heard my screams of pain that day as we walked down the long hall of the place I was in, I can still remember that feeling of fear and anguish, when they put me in a room alone in a crib with very high rails, no blanket or pillow, cold lonely and frighted. I remember crying silently hugging myself til I fell asleep. Alone and Cold.
   Heaven help us all if we gave mother any stress, to add to the trauma of being beaten, she used to make us find, the extension cord that she intended to use to beat the living hell out of us with. I remember the baby sitter feeding us bread with mustard and sugar on it because there wasn't any food in the house, and sitting in front of an open oven to keep warm because the electric was turned off.     
  Recently I was told I have a love hate relationship with my family. I don't hate my family your wrong reader,  I have 4 brothers and one sister. My sister didn't suffer the chamber of horrors that my brothers and I did, mostly because I protected her with my life. I was her stand in mother for the first five years of her life, after all she was put in my bedroom, someone had to get up for those 2 am feedings and diaper changes. I adore her, and she feels the same about me, she has turned into the most beautiful caring woman, and my closest friend.
    My brothers, and I  never talk much any more, we are all too busy with our own dysfunctional marriages,  divorces, and plastic lives, but the love still runs very deep, and no one will ever get in between our love for each other, not even their spouses or children can come between that special bond we all share, because it runs to deep to compare to anything else. My poor brothers have many emotional scares that will never go away. We don't talk about the abuse when we are together, we don't want to talk about it. It's the past, and just Getting over it isn't an option for us, because the ability to forget such a traumatic life experience isn't a luxury we as humans possess.     
      My reason for this blog isn't to slam family, although it would seem so. It's to bring out the truth of  abused children, to make an awareness that, it is in your own back yard.  Our home wasn't simple discipline, like neighbors thought, it was abuse, neglect, sodomy, rape, brutal beatings, and corporal punishments!  When a child is neglected, abused, sodomised, and beaten, it does something to the mental status of the child, it causes so many emotional problems that will continue to plague them forever, hindering them from ever having any kind of a normal adult life. So those of you who like to say, GET OVER IT, you are just as abusive, your blunt words do not heal they add to the pain we suffer inside. Just because you think we should get over it! Do you think for one moment, that we are going to completely change our way of life, a way that was beaten into our minds from the time of birth?  It don't work that way. I believe you want us to just get over it, so you don't have to feel anything about yourself, including some hidden guilt you hold, from the last time you hit your kid, or said something so nasty that it cut into his or her heart like an extension cord to the skin.
     Another famous saying is, forgive and forget,  God can only forgive you if you forgive them, and you can't get to heaven if you don't.  When you are already in a, LIVING HELL, that sure makes a lot of sense! Some of you God fearing people are so heavenly conscious that you are often no earthly good.  Some of you people really need to wake up and smell the coffee.

   I am here to tell you that taking a pill doesn't' make the scares heal either, they just dull the senses so you don't feel, so that the truths of your life stay hidden and  unexposed.  I want to feel, I want to be alive, and I want to be healthy, and I want you to know how it feels to be abused. My childhood was stolen from me and this blog is helping me to get back my life. If you want me to get over it then pass this blog on to everyone you know. Help Stop CHILD ABUSE !
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Pictures on this blog are from sites on Child Abuse.  Just Google Child
Abuse and you will see many more just like it. I am not a random case it's every where.  Here a a few for you to view.

http://helpguide.org/mental/child_abuse_physical_emotional_sexual_neglect.htm

 http://www.neighborhoodscan.com/FamilySafetyReport/

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