Abused-hiding out

If your a victim of abuse you know already where I am going with this title. After all isn't that what you have been doing for a long time? Hiding out.... from yourself, your family, your friends, and any one who makes a difference in your life. Your so afraid for anyone to find out about your past that it is crippling you. Who are you protecting with this secret? What are you afraid of most? If someone just happen to find out about you, what do you think will happen?
   The biggest thing we lose total sight of is the fact that keeping it secret is allowing the abuser to continue on his or her path of violence and invasion on your life, or perhaps the life of the next victim. Even from the grave my abuser continues to abuse my mind, my dreams and my life. I had been abused for so long, and kept it secret so much so, that it left everyone wondering why I never told anyone, and only leaving their sick minds to think perhaps I was a willing party. In the first couple of years, I really was to young to realize what was happening to me, I was unaware of the fact that I was being sexually abused. I didn't know about sex, all I know is that I didn't like what was happening and with each attack it because more over powering and abusive. As he would force himself on me I would begin to cry but a few good slams, throwing me about the room, slamming me against walls and then his hand over my mouth, would usually do the trick. I knew screaming would be death for sure. When a child is told he or she will be beaten, they usually submit because they don't want to hurt anymore. Especially if they had been beaten in the past. One thing you know for sure, and there is no doubt about it, that when they say, shut up!, you better do it, some children didn't learn to be quiet, they didn't know any better, most of them aren't here to tell their story. They didn't get the luxury of getting to put their abusers away for life.
  Every time any of us were beaten we were told to shut up and if we didn't, the blows would come twice as hard. Have you ever been beaten with an extension cord, when it's wrapped just right it leaves deep cuts in your skin that bleed and ooze for days, and it leaves scares on you skin for the rest of your life, much like the scares of a whip that are seen on the backs of slaves. You hide them with long pants, long sleeves and make up. These abusers are criminals they don't deserve to be kept secret. For the longest time I though, no I won't tell because it was so long ago what would it accomplish. It will only destroy the lives of innocent people. But I have come to realize my silence has opened the door for all abusers to do the same thing to another child. Don't close your eyes and pretend it won't happen to you, I was happening to me right under my mothers nose. I won't hide any more, I am on a quest to stop child abuse, to give these scums of the earth just some, of what they gave their victims. Join the fight, get involved. Know who and where your children are at all times. My childhood was taken from me, I didn't give it away, it was stolen. I can't get back my youth, but I can take back my life! Join my blog tell your story, expose these people for who and what they are, save an innocent life by making people aware, join the cause to help fight child abuse. God Bless you and God bless the children.