Abused

We hear about abuse every day but did you know that 3 of every 5 childred will be abused by a family member or someone you know.  My abuse began at a very early age and continued on for over 13 years. The first question from everyones mouth is why didn't you tell someone. It would have been so easy just to tell a teacher or extended family member,they would say, they didn't realize, but I was telling them every day in every possible way. But no one listened, who would hear my cry, was there anyone out there that understood the reason I cried so much, or why I was anti social, at the age of 7 I learned to lock my doors. They didn't hear the muffled screams in the middle of the night, or see the black and blue marks or marks for tv cords. The didn't ask question why I sleep in the fetal position with one foot sticking out from under the covers? A thumb sucker until I was 12 years old, I would sit on my calves rocking totally zoned out in front of the TV.   Did they see, did they think I deserved it? Did they know my heart or my pain? The angwish every time my mother would leave me in his care. A once happy child with long red curles now nothing but a bundle of nerves. Who could I tell?